I am

I am the gust of wind
I am the turbulence of the sea
I am the vision of the mind
My word is final decree

I am the pain in life
I am reality
I am the ray of hope
I am imaginary

I am the shadow in darkness
I am the eyes that see
I am the courage that conquers
I am the feet that flee

I run amok in silence
I bloom eternally
I am the macabre fear
I am the life within me

I am the starry night
I am the scarlet tree
I am the kiss of the butterfly
I am the sting of the bee

I am loss, I am failure, I am the end
I am that which will never be
I am victory, I am success, I am the beginning
I am possibility

I am the fabric that makes you
I am the colour in thee
I am your strength and weakness
I am murky sadness and the effervescent glee

I am God
I am with you for eternity
I am you, you are me
I am your imagination set free



I have always believed in the phrase "It's all in the mind" perhaps this poem explains why

The meaning..

I search for meaning...but I find none
I scan the bottoms of the oceans....I scrounge all places under the sun....
But the meaning eludes me...what life means I still know not
It haunts my mind....its a painful thought...
But even after so much introspection....what life means I still know not

I know that I search for meaning...but what that is I know not
I got all that I wanted.....but what I needed...I never got
I had love, I had friends, I had family....but still the meaning of life I sought
One day I want to know it
One day I want to comprehend
One day I want to know the answer
One day I want my quest to end

But I know that though I know a lot
What life means I still know not...

Written when I was soooo lonely that I almost laughed to death [laughed at my misfortune that is].......for those interested, that "when" was today morning...

My Mind - The Barrier

My mind destroys my resolve
It stirs a storm in the halls of my heart
I could have blown mountains with my breath
Only my mind did not let me start

I sought to fly high in the sky
Though wind was mocking, yet my wings drew nigh
But then my mind let out a sigh..
And I knew that instant....I wouldn't fly
The courage I had to shed blood and slay
I wished that my crusade could last all day
"How strong he is" I heard people say
But then at the corner, I heard my mind neigh
"Though thou art strong thou art still made of clay..
Don't orphan your children, let them grow let them play.."

And then I lost my strength and vigour
To survive became my ambition, to live, my only rigour..

I loved to swim the violent seas..
To tame the wildest jungles and do as I please..
And then my mind tamed me one day...
I could not revolt as I had nothing to say

My mind was thinking to make me live
But in return for life, my freedom I had to give..
Then all of a sudden my subdued heart gave a cry..
So I killed my apprehensions and aimed for the sky...
Today there is nothing that I am afraid to try...
I live life as if tomorrow I may die..

Someone asked me if my mind was acting as a barrier to my thoughts and expression......this was my reply....

Cigar aur Beer

smoke cigar
go to the bar
drive ferrari car
Doston se lo udhar
becho ghar dwar
par piyo shauk se cigar...

pite pite mar jaana hai
mummy papa ki dant khana hai
par ciggarette ko jaroor jalana hai
aur doston mein dhuan udana hai
har puff ke saath udaenge zindagi
har shot ke saath lutaenge zindagi
yehi to hai mazza zindagi ka
yehi ek jazza zindagi ka.............

phir ek din us dhuen mein ham
dheere dheere ho jayenge kam
mummy ki ankhein hongi nam
lete hue aakhri dam....
kahenge sab se......

kitna kuch karna tha...
abhi to nahi marna tha...
par dhuen mein udayi zindagi..
botal mein sadayi zindagi...
lekin bhagwaan ne nahi badhayi zindagi...

A poem in Hinglish....a mixture of hindi and english.....not tongue in cheek humour but an attempt at the same.....written to make those ignorant fools aware of their folly..

Those cheeky raindrops

Raindrops dot the sky..My heart heaves a misty sigh
What I look for is out of sight
All that I can do is.... Watch the raindrops’ flight

How cheeky this raindrop is…
It soars out of the blue and kisses my sweetheart…
But All I can do is..
Watch nature’s work of art

The seven colours of the rainbow call out to me
Why I don’t recognize them today.. they query
But Colours are things that I see..
When with a silent smile creeping over her face…she makes them merry..

How lucky the skies are…they always get to see…
The things that my eyes cry to see…
But all I can do is…
Wipe those tears and pray that she come back to me..



Shayar ka Andaaz....

Muskurana bhool gaye hum jab aapki hansi nahi dekhi…
Ab to bolne se honth bhi katrate hain…
Kyon ab akele rehte hain aapke bina ....
Kya yehi hota hai jab dil se dil mil jaate hain…

I was in love........and it shows......written during the monsoons.....when she was not with me

The Never Ending Conflict

The Sun is moving towards his throne
Far away in the eastern skyHe says to the moon..
"All night you have shone...Now its time to say good bye."
And with that the sun brightens the earth..
And chases darkness away,
Now the earth with glee and mirth..
Cheers the arrival of day
The birds sing and praise the sun
For the strength that he brings"
The Sun is mightier than any mortal",they say
"He can dust a thousand kings!"
Flattered by these words,the sun,
Beams with over-flowing pride,
He promises, he shall rid them of darkness for ever,
He shall leave it no place to hide...
With that he begins his conquest great..
And goes where darkness may lurk..
He has only one goal and that is to eliminate,
All Sadness,gloom and murk...
But, now the world devoid of all shade..
Get's hotter and unpleasant,needless to say
It could have been a cool and lovely glade
Had the sun's ambition not come in the way
Although the sun is victorious..
And darkness is nowhere to be found..
No prey nor predator walks the earth
There is silence all around
At last..the sun aware of his folly
Lessens his glorious light
And creatures of the earth console the sun
On witnessing his sorrow and plight
But seeing opportunity darkness returns
To avenge its shameful loss
It comes unnoticed out of nowhere
But causes total chaos
It strikes the sun with its purple blade
And stains the sky red
But the mighty King of planets..
Somehow manages to save his head
"I now retreat" He says
"But, I shall be back, tomorrow again.
And this time my efforts I promise
Shall not go in vain."
To this darkness replied.."
I shall wait..my noble foe..
Tomorrow you may be more powerful..
But I shall have more tricks to show.."

And thus goes on the duel
Between darkness and the mighty sun
The sun does his job of chasing darkness away..
But it returns as soon as the job is done..

Written when I was about 14 years old........had just read a poem by Vikram Seth "The Mouse and the Snake".......loved it and was inspired to pen down a loooooong poem of my own....so did it........I like to write about nature

A Walk Down the Memory Lane

A Walk Down the Memory Lane
Tells us clearly that we become insane
For the same forces that we worshipped before
Are not that magical to us anymore.
When we count our efforts to protect neture's pristine beauty
We have to admit that we have not done our duty
In the quest for knowledge...every stpe that we take..
By ignoring nature..what a mistake we make...stop for Heaven's sake!
Obsessed by our ambition to Conquer the land and the sky..
We have seldom if ever heard the suppressed cry
Of all those noble creatures..that silently have to die
Being the most powerful is no simple task
There are many questions that we have got to ask
Why have we so far ignored Everyone's call?
Let's move ahead and find a solution that suits all..

It was the environmental awareness week......hence the theme